Friday 25 November 2016

MY CATHARSIS, BLUE

Metals 'N' Roses by Nkaiferi Ifiok











It’s never so easy to fall in love
So when you do you never want to set it free
You hold on for what you hope will be forever, 
Even when the love is turning awry


Even when feelings flow unilateral,
Letting go is far from the option
You think you see her desire to let it flow
Despite her dam holding back the tide


That wall is a chasm but you believe,
“ She’s fighting her feelings is all i’tis ” 
None of it do you want to understand 
All you desire is let her fall


Everything you think you can; I do 
Giving even nights before your finals 
But shear persistence is not enough 
To burst or break that bloody wall


He begs and pleas, “tell me please!” 
But all she says is the silent *mum*
So decide you do to let her go, 
Set free a love that you feel so strong


She says she’s sad letting you out the door 
A glimpse reveals it’s truth in her eyes
For an instant a tear she can’t control, 
Flows from behind that massive wall


You catch its glint as she turns to hide, 
Just before you shut the door goodbye 
It’s too late ‘cuz for now, you’re off! 
And without a doubt not turning back


But what really cut my soul so deep, 
Was that you never let him steal from your lips
Even a kiss to set my soul at peace, 
That one kiss that would have never let him leave


Every time that I came close to you
Face to face, with your back to the wall
It was your racing heart that I always did feel, 
Beating against my chest like “this is it.”


But whenever he leaned in to get a taste
You’d beg him not to comply 
You’d beg him with that tear in your eye
With your hand hard on his chest, "just let me go"


Fast forward three years to the third of March
The day I think you stole my breath away
Three years and boarders yet he couldn’t believe 
A woman made him forget to breathe


But not a second's care did I give, 
As we disappeared into that moment's tide
And if it decided, never to end
How perfect forever would have been 


But still I knew better, 
that was just the beginning, 
of the end…